neptunain:

i wish there wasn’t a stigma about doing things alone. you can’t go out to eat alone, you can’t see a movie alone, basically anything fun, you’re looked down on for doing alone and it’s so stupid you shouldn’t need other people to validate your decisions

I like being alone too much

(via driarene)

“You can pretend I don’t exist but I still made you cum.”

- I want this etched into my gravestone.  (via usvojena)

(Source: unclefather, via xlovesweetie)

what if im actually dead and this is hell.
“After high school you realize you were only friends with some people because you saw them five times a week.”

- (via sensxal-bliss)

(via slimjimgim)

deadeliving:

Me every time a develop any sort of feeling towards humans

(Source: angryblackman, via j0nawithazero)

ex0skeletal:

Pro Tip: Instead of having feelings, try being dead inside. Everything is still horrible but you will not care at all.

(via ke-cleon)

focusfireadvance:




It’s like being in love: giving somebody the power to hurt you and trusting (or hoping) they won’t.
Marina Abramović, Rest Energy



Jay-Z would never be able to create this kind of tension in his music or his “performance art”. Can’t believe he even tried to call himself the living Picasso. Show em how it’s done, Marina. 

focusfireadvance:


It’s like being in love: giving somebody the power to hurt you and trusting (or hoping) they won’t.

Marina Abramović, Rest Energy

Jay-Z would never be able to create this kind of tension in his music or his “performance art”. Can’t believe he even tried to call himself the living Picasso. Show em how it’s done, Marina. 

(Source: deletethefeeling, via kougs)

Attachment Theory & Styles

I was reading through notes from a class seminar I took my first year of college. Recently, a lot of people have been asking me if I’m talking to anyone or have taken interested in anyone and it’s always the same answer: I needed to work on myself first before giving myself to anyone. Now that I’m super busy and occupied, I don’t have time for useless relationships and in all honesty, I don’t need anyone in my life. I’m open but if it happens it happens. I get crushes that last a day and I get over it. 

But after reading my notes, I remembered that these styles have applied to me and explains why that a lot of what I say can also be an excuse/cover: 

1. Fearful Avoident (or Anxious Ambivalent) 
Parent=Negative or disonfirming rejecting, abusive communication, unpredictable—supportive one minute and unsupportive the next
Child= unworthy of love, afraid of comittment—fear that person won’t be there or stay with them, fear of getting hurt emotionally

2. Dismissive Avoident (Dismissives or Avoidants)**
Parent=disinterested, rejecting, emotionally unavailable and abusive
Child= view others as unworthy of their love, relationships as undesirable, distancing, lack of comittment, too independent

3. Preoccupied
Parent= role reversals, abandon child emotionally
Child= positive view of others, negative view of self, low self-esteem, absorbed with relationship, 

I’m a mix of all three of these. Right when someone even peaks interest, I abandon ship. I run away. & I never stopped to think how these actions had affected others in the past. Because I’m not the only one who has these issues. 
This is who I am. Do I really have the capacity to truly trust another and love them? 

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